Sad

Sadness,

it is something I think,

I think I have lost,

No more tears to shed,

nothing that has happened since,

since the incident,

has made me felt sad and cried,

Is it bad,

Is it cruel,

am I heartless,

am I even a living entity ?

Today,

when the bell struck,

struck at 12 noon,

I received a news,

a bad news,

my grandfather who me and my siblings call,

Tokwan,

passed away,

he fell in the bathroom,

brought to the hospital,

went critical and passed.

When I heard the news,

no emotion,

only a void,

a void that is already there,

in my heart,

getting bigger and bigger.

What face should I show,

to my cousins,

to my aunties,

to my uncles,

to my parents,

when I arrive there ?

I do not know,

maybe 'blankness' is what I should show,

but,

am I really alive ?

When will I be able to become a living entity once again >w<